Songs for U..Songs for Me..

Friday, March 30, 2007

Reunion!

Finally after so long time...............5yrs?6yrs?

Yes...thats how long I have not been seeing these 2 ladies since sometime back....actually it doesnt seemed that long but time flies...

This reunion could be been done way way long ago, blamed it on my weird working hours/schedule throughout these 5-6yrs. Our meeting have been postponing and postponing..

Our meeting today...1 was missing..yes..its Ah Tok...we met up Ah Cai and Ah Wei. Ah Tok was probably angry with me..for dragging this reunion too long so she decided to meet me somewhere next time...now..its her turn to "ignore" for the time being...till I see you up there again..yup gal? *smile*

Initially, yes...could feel the slight awkardness between me and 2 gals...but after 30mins warm-up..we got down to our usual giggles, loud laughters, and out-of-the-world actions..these are the trademarks we have adopted since 12yrs ago from secondary school.

Chatting over dinner was enjoyable, talking about the different schoolmates, classmates, teachers, etc...those childish & silly moments in school.

For a moment, time seemed to be at standstill to 12yrs back. Those giggles and loud laughters in school canteen. Commenting on schoolmates, classmates we do not like, which teachers were lousy..which guy has lots of gals fancy...etc...

I truely missed those times.

The giggles and loud laughters shall always remain at 75% strength, as the remaining 25% was with Ah Tok...

Ah Tok, do you when we sat at the 4 seaters table just now, I really wished it was you who was sitting there and not our bags...it should have been your seat!!

Perhaps you dont require a physical seat as all of us have reserved a seat in our heart for you.

Lastly, thank you Ah Cai and Ah Wei for today's lovely catch up, finally...finally...we reunion today...I'm sure there is more to come...yes..I'm sure....



PS:
Ah Tok all of us are getting fine and well...dont worry for us...we have learnt to move on...you should too if you could hear us okie... :)

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

<<麻木>>

Taiwanese Author: 小蓝 - 情感小写 <<麻木>>


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当麻木得连麻木都被麻木,行尸走肉已经不算什么了。

人生有1/3的时间会在沉睡中度过,算下来真正清醒的时候其实并不多。忘记了什么时候开始,我对惊喜的事物不再有兴奋;忘记了什么时候,我对这种熟悉的痛苦,心痛已经习以为常,不再反抗。


不肯承认自己的失败,只好麻木自己,连酒精香烟都让我瞧不上,我只好躲在梦境里,不想再睁开眼睛面对这恐怖小说般的世界。

我能吗?我不能,我怎样都逃避不了,日复一日,年复一年,身上的责任越来越重,压力越来越大,对自由的向往就越来越疯狂。

星期一,可以成为一个斯文的上班白领;星期二,可以成为一个活泼乱跳的小女孩;星期三,可以成为一个贤良淑德的妇人;星期四,可以成为一个潇洒豪迈的假小子;星期五,可以成为一个风骚艳丽的坏女人……


林林总总的所作所为无所不提醒着我对自己的陌生,也许,太寂寞会导致变态,导致我开始对镜中的自己越来越疏离,再也不能与本来的追求对话,奋斗。

我忘记了自己在哪里……我到底在哪里……我不要醒来……

我对自己的厌倦逼得我流泪,自闭,嗜睡。


我没有一丝勇气和力量去改变自己的身心,一切的东西我都没有力气抓住,想像着流年的逝去,想像着自己最终像乞丐一样躲在发霉的小木屋里,甚至看到自己的遗像扭曲地放在爬满蟑螂的凳脚。

连写作,都不再有力量去发挥,灵感快要弃我而去,我就是这样,一个无可救药而自嘲的人吗?

等等等等,我在等什么?等着一个不会回来的人?等着一个让我翩翩起舞的机会?等着一颗忠诚的心?


我真傻,真傻。

过度乐观来安慰自己,抚平自己不愿面对的事实,一直都是那么软弱,善良。

曾经的勇气都在时间里消逝,这个世界还会有我想当初的宝剑吗?还是先找回我自己到底站在了哪里?

十四岁那年……
十七岁那年……

二十七岁那年。

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Thank you...

Dear Sweetest "Pig Dog" Friends..

Thank you for the sweet time, yes as time goes by..celebrations like these are rare, its more like a gathering for all....

Those 8-10 yrs of wonderful memories never failed to tigger laughters amongst us whenever we met, we would reminiscence the time where we were all strangers from all walks of life coming together with a common goal, to help or rather we were there to help ourselves to help the children from single parent family..

Those countless of camps we ran..those sweat and blood given throughout the camps..were done hoping that the children could one day benefit from one of these camps...

None to mention the camps benefited us as well lah, many friendship were bonded, doesnt matter if I was just a 18 sweet young thing then (hah!), our group were of different age group, some were still in army then, some in uni, some already working and some are married! Basically it ran from 18-40yrs old roughly..

Our little group formed started roughly 8-9yrs ago, since then we have done countless to crazy things together at one point of time till people probably think we are mad!

Those emails I printed out today documented some of our outing records...it was indeed a wonderful time for me then.

I dare say, it was and always be one of the memorable time of my life with these people..u know who you are, if only I could relive those memories and time again..I couldnt be happier and carefree!

Hah...dream on gal...I should be thankful for what I had experienced with these friends then...at least it was a "YES! BEEN THERE DONE THAT! "


Thank you friends,
MooMoo~

Saturday, March 10, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH TOK!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH TOK!

Happy Birthday to you...
Happy Birthday to you...
Happy Birthday to AH TOK...
Happy Birthday to YOU!


It would have been a day I would send u my yearly birthday wishes through sms on this special day of your...this year is different...hope you are settling well in your "new home"...

miss you...