"Heavy......"

Lately have been thinking alot...too much to the point that the more I think the more scary it gets....

I have a feeling of "heavy" in me lately...in the sense of mentality...dont know why... this "heaviness" is making me hard to catch a breath....

I just felt that alot of things are not what I expect it to be...I really hope things happened for the better...not the other way round...

It gets worst when I cant confide in anyone..or rather who can I confide with? I had only myself to "talk my way through" to my inner self...to think positively...and not do anything silly...

Hmm...lets hope the short getaway will do me some good...whatever gonna happen 5-6mths down the road...I will learn to cope and settle it...if it is not gonna turn out the way I hope it will be...let it be....

I m learning to let go....(been letting go alot of things for the past few months....so whats new?)

Okie...I m looking forward to EAT! SLEEP! PLAY! HAVE FUN!!